This is not a journal entry nor is it intended to be part of my book. This is just raw pain. As I wrote a while back, following the CPS thing, we decided not to mess with diapers anymore in school with Peter. Let them handle his wetting, which they contend, when its convenient, doesn’t occur at school. This is because an incontinent 3rd grader has needs beyond the official school’s policy about inclusion learning and its quite clear they don’t want this coming out at next month’s due process hearing. Of course, for CPS purposes, the school accuser claimed he is incontinent and that I “beat him up” for it). But never mind that: his special ed. teacher apparently has the gall to still make him change out of his wet clothes, into dry spare clothes, and then back into the peed on clothes to go home (I guess they dry by the end of the day, she washes them somehow, something). All of this is done to hide from us the fact that he wets at school. They tell him to lie to us. Apparently they aren’t inspired enough to actually put him on a toileting schedule, as in every hour or even half hour, which might avoid the need for all the deceptions and charades. Even when we informed the school administrators of what we consider to be emotional abuse if not physical harm early last week, they remain nonplussed. They think they are invulnerable and infallible because according to Peter, two teachers, Ms. Cordier and her long-time aide (Ms. Carmody) are continuing to make him participate in these deceits. On May 18 we asked for a response to our bringing the situation to the administrators’ attention and were told they were consulting their attorney. How can we send our son to school tomorrow feeling like we’re setting him up for more of this? Why is this not child abuse – as in the real thing? Poor Peter. These audio clips are in his own words. He brought it up in the car this evening, when we were alone (as in, “Mom, they are still making me do this at school”) and then I asked him to retell the story for Pat when we got home. I recorded it, without Peter knowing (he is under enough stress as it is) on my trusty IPhone. Peter doesn’t deserve this and either do we. CPS has no jurisdiction against a school. I emailed the school tonight and said if I had no response by 10 am tomorrow morning then I would call the police. The school was correct in concluding our son was being abused, they just forgot to look in a mirror to see who were the real abusers. And if you think to yourself, why don’t these parents just put a diaper back on him? The answer is both simple and sad. We have to do this to prove that he indeed wets his pants, regularly, for purposes of the hearing, and hopefully getting him into a compassionate, appropriate and nonhostile school – our local school’s official position is that he doesn’t wet (again, unless they’re in the mood to report us to CPS, then he is incontinent – maybe there’s an institutional split personality problem here) – and obviously its very important for them to continue this fiction, no matter what the cost.